As of 18 October, i'm feeling miserable again.
i thought things changed for the better but no, i just lowered my expectations.
Every single time i feel that things will improve i just feel more fucked than before.


in other news:
- the outer corner of my right eye is still fucking swollen.
- i may have terribly screwed up the accounting test that will take up 20% of the final grade.
- i'd a major fight with my sis just now and now im stuck in my room behind closed doors because i dont wanna even look at her/ hear her voice.

and of course, you're either sleeping or outside socialising


it takes guts to admit a mistake and make amends.
Guts some people don't have. so they deny. and deny. and ignore. and forget. and feel better about themselves.